2010/02/14

New Beginning...

Our precious gifts from God
aren't too tough to be told;
they are gifts from Dear Jesus
His dear love cannot be sold.

How thankful to Christ you are 
living day by day here for Him.
Thru His light in our blessed life
Sharing with all, I WILL NOT GROW DIM!

That is just so true. I love my kiddo Tory so much. I am amazed and astounded at how much this kiddo can take at such a young age. Which time? When we had to leave my ex the first time when she was 3 mos old, from lack of care? When she saw me go thru my first brain surgery at 1? When she saw that my ex tried to be part of our life again, until he beat me when she was 1 1/2? Or all the overdosing and seizures and hospitalization on those that followed? She saw my 2nd brain surgery at 3 1/2... my surgery to take the screws out at almost 5... and this surgery-- the intense AWAKE-- gone over 2 weeks hospitalization-- she is almost 9 for it. 
She was nervous that first day I was gone. She was tired. Didn't have me putting her in bed. Worn from all the places she had to go. Overall-just wanted a MOM hug, one that proved she is ALIVE... even if she has deep wires in her brain. I asked my precious hubby to please brain her up... and during all the worry time away from me... she did her usual... she got hives all over her body. So the trip up here to see me-calmed that down the rest of the time. She made several frequent visits-and was a-ok!! I know what it is like having her in the hospital-- I just don't leave. That is so tough. She and I always "argue" who loves the other "more." She has such an unbelievable heart. One that only parents can have very tiny to do with- the rest is all Jesus! And I praise Him for that!!
She would come up and love to feed me-like pay back of all the times I'd do it for her!! She has a heart beyond any I have really come across at this age, constantly. She isn't perfect.. but she is darn close when it comes to how much we are to love all, at all times with our heart. And I am so proud of her.
This little one has a controlled case of absence seizures. I am blessed controlled. Therefore she has a larger chance to outgrow them - than most. I pray she does. If not-I just pray she uses it all FOR HIS GLORY-- the way mine turned out. It has taught me the wondrous ways Christ works in our lives--great times, and very much tough times. His timing and plans are perfect. That is where I say, in all circumstances, praise Him, knowing-HE HAS HIS ANSWER, HIS PLANS... and with trust, love, obedience... they will unfold!

I Love you all-- you all were such sunlight, even on tough days-- and you always remain sunlight- in my life everyday. My head hurts-- and my shaven part is quite deep this time-- but all for HIS GLORY-- not mine! I truly praise Him for every step... and every doc He guided me to. I feel so blessed... I am just here to share!

God bless you all!! Thank you for your warm heart and care!

In His Love,

Heather (Hetty) Siebens  @AliveinMe @EpilepsyCures
http://www.causes.com/epilepsycures
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1 Peter 5: 6-7
So humble yourselves under the mighty power of God, and in His good time He will honor you. Give ALL your worries and cares to God, for He cares about what happens to you!!